Where once there were two hearts beating there is now just one.
Where once we were filled with joy and excitement of adding another set of little twin loves to our family there is sorrow mixed with worry, fears and hope.
Where once I woke with smiles I now wake with tears.
At 16 weeks 2 days we got to see our beautiful, wriggly twin 1. We were filled with joy and excitement. Then the scan moved to twin 2. It was instantly obvious that twin 2 was smaller than twin 1. The femur length was measured, 2 weeks smaller than the other twin, than they should be. And then the brief look for a heartbeat. 30 seconds that stretched into forever.
Our darling twin 2, our little Tillie, stopped growing at 14 weeks. Our hearts are broken.